It all starts with me...

Transformation occurs at so many different levels. I have to admit, this past year has had the most transformation for me. I've grown spiritually, mentally, emotionally & physically. As single transformations, they were great but all together they bring me to a heightened level of transformation... One compliments the other and as one grows, so do the rest. I have learned to sync my mind, body & soul. I'm happy, my body is healthy and strong, and my heart n' soul are filled with pure hope and love. You see, when I learned positive thinking is the ONLY way to bring happiness and joy to my life, I stopped worrying about the small stuff. I focused on the very blessings laid before me, and I monopolized on that and that alone. My life has been blessed with amazingly supportive people who love me for me, for my fitness, and for my love for God. There's more to me than the eye can see and only the heart can know. You may not agree with everything I believe in or do, but that's okay. I've learned to live this life for me and by me. The ones who matter will join me in my madness without reservation or judgement. At the end of the day, that is all I need. 

So please excuse me as I continue to transform my mind, my heart, my soul, and my body... I'm just warming up.

Unexpected excellence

5 yrs ago today, I donned my Navy Uniform for the last time. I was leaving behind 10 yrs of job security & camaraderie. I was giving up the privilege of proudly serving our nation and stepping back into the "Real World" and "Civilian Workforce". I didn't have a 5 yr plan. Hell, I didn't really have a plan at all. I had landed a job as a civilian contractor doing the same job and that's all I knew. 

Never would I imagine how drastic my life would change in 5 yrs. I have gained so much more than I could ever dream of: A successful career outside of the toolbox, newfound love & respect for myself, a great passion for fitness, and an amazing group of friends I have met along the way. I'm living the dream of "Wealth, Health, & Love". None of which would be possible without faith and the hunger for wanting more out of life. 

This picture shows you the well-groomed Federal Employee with hopeful eyes, bearing a genuine smile that lights up like a starlit sky. What it doesn't show you was the struggle I went through and how much loss I experienced in the process. It won't always be sunny days, but trust me when I say it was definitely worth the rainy ones. 

You don't always have to know where you are going, as long as you commit to moving forward!

Do more, Say more, Change more... Lives

      

It's 3 am on the Sunday of an emotional week. I just finished training, and decided to log onto Facebook to check-out what I've missed from this busy weekend. I came across a touching video on  the Mommy and Me Cancer Foundation's page; it was about a triathalon a few of their athletes completed last weekend. These were women, who not only dedicated their time but their physical abilities to help raise money for a foundation created to help Mother's with Cancer. How amazing is that?!?

Earlier this week, I received an email from the National Marrow Donor Program stating that I was a match. I can't begin to explain the excitement in my heart when I read the email. I signed up as a donor back in 2007, and here it was... finally my chance to save a life. So eager to find out more, I immediately called to start the process. As we started to go through the medical history portion of the screening, I felt my heart break the second she told me I was disqualified. The Degenerative Discs in my lower back made me ineligible for both procedures. To be perfectly honest, I wanted to cry. Those who know me, know how passionate I am about everything I set out to do, this was no different. I'm not one who likes to be told "no" or that I can't do something, but this was something I couldn't change. The rules are written, and there was no way around it. With disappointment in my heart, I decided to post about it on Facebook and Instagram. Just because I can't donate my marrow, doesn't mean I can't help spread the word to those who can. To my surprise, my efforts didn't go unnoticed. That same day I received a message from a high school friend who said she visited the website and requested a registration kit to be sent to her. That's all it takes, one person to take the first step.

So here I am, thinking "Why can't we all just do a little more?". I know plenty of people in the fitness industry, not to mention the many of you whom I met or reunited with because of my fitness journey. So, I ask you, what's stopping you from doing more? I would like to think it's just because people are unaware of how something so small can change a life in such a tremendous way. Everyday we are willing to spend hours in the gym to better ourselves, why not use it for some good towards someone who needs it? I've personally participated in a few Relay For Life events, a Kidney Walk, a Tour de Cure for Diabetes, and a deadlift contest for the 1736 Family Crisis Center. So why do I feel like I haven't done enough? Because for these warriors, the fight is never really over. With that said, here is my challenge to all of you: Find a local event, and give back. Donate your time, maybe some loose change, or perhaps participate as a fundraising athlete. Take the time to meet with these warriors, listen to their stories, and I guarantee that you will leave there feeling like you need to do more and give more. I'm a firm believer that I was not given my talents to glorify myself, but to use it as a tools for a greater good. So I encourage you all to do the same. A million little steps, still gets you to your destination; the hard part is getting started. Let this be a part of your "fit" journey, I'm honored to make it a part of mine. All the medals, plaques, and new records pale in comparison to a life changed from participating in a charity event. It's bigger than you and I, and as long as I'm strong enough to "pay it forward" I will continue to do so. 

For those of you wondering, "Where do I start?" Simply scroll down to the bottom right of this blog page and you can find the links to a few of my favorite charities. So there you have it, all the tools to get you started. READY.... SET.... GO!!!!!

Always looking forward...

August 2010 - Venezia S. Lucia, Italy

I had been on Italian soil for less than 24 hours when this picture was taken. I couldn't help but feel at peace and excited at the same time. We landed in Milan, spent the day in Venice, and were heading to Bellagio the next day. At this point, it had been almost a year since I decided to take back control of my life. My heart was finally starting to mend, I was rediscovering who I was, I was working with a trainer to get back in shape, and I had finally adjusted to being a civilian in the workforce. I was well on my way to a brighter path. I promised myself that I was going to enjoy this trip, and leave everything else behind. Although it was my childhood best friend getting married, this was MY time. 

Italy changed me and the way I approached my everyday life. Our schedule was hectic and the travel was insane. Normally I would trip out if we weren't running on time or my OCD would kick-in and everything would need to be planned out and laid out a certain way, but something was different this time. I finally realized that not everything had to be planned out, and how much nicer it was to leave things up to chance. I just had to let it all go and roll with it. I found myself taking in deep breaths and with each exhale my guard went down piece by piece.

When we reached Bellagio,  my heart was overwhelmed with love while my mind was finally at peace. I guess staring across Lake Como with the Swiss Alps draping the background had that affect on me. I didn't feel like a foreigner in another land, thousands of miles away from my comfort zone. Instead, I finally felt like I was "home". The peace I felt was so overwhelming that words would do it injustice. For once in a long time, I was happy... with myself and the life I was living.

Was it some mystical wonder of being in another country? Was it the beautiful view of the majestic mountains? Or perhaps the calm body of water that surrounded the city of Bellagio. Maybe, but I would not have enjoyed their beauty as a whole had I not made one important, life-changing decision... letting go.

I made the choice to let go of all the pain, doubt, anger, and fear of the unknown. Once I made that choice for myself, the flood gates broke and happiness drenched my soul. I haven't looked back since.  I can't control everything, and life is too precious to waste worrying about it. The more you anchor yourself to the negative the longer it takes for you to reach that happiness. Let go and move forward. Only look back to remind yourself of where you don't want to be. When you choose to be happy, being anything else is no longer an option.

Choose love and laughter... Choose to live by YOUR rules.

Ralph Waldo Emerson said it best, "Successful people LIVE well, LAUGH often, and LOVE much."

Step into my world...

Well, here it is folks... my very first Blog entry. First off, thanks for stopping by. The very thought that you are all crazy (or curious) enough to take a look at what craziness is spewing from my head, means a lot to me. I've debated for months (okay, more like 5) whether or not to start one of these things. After many signs, from totally unconnected friends, I realized the clues couldn't get any more clearer. I received numerous words of encouragement about the content of my writings, my positive energy, and my interesting walk of life. So with that comes the birth of my blog. Instagram and Facebook can only hold so much interest, not to mention the annoying search of something you found inspirational to read. There are times even I need to re-read something I posted to find inspiration myself. I have found that this may be the best solution yet. I will try to keep this as interesting as possible and I promise to post just as much of my silly stuff, but as human as I am please understand that there may also be times of deep contemplation where I'm a bit heavy hearted and vulnerable. All those moments make up who I am. 

So sit back and enjoy the makings of "Mai" stay a while if you choose, but if you must go thank you for stopping by...